Desucon & new boyfriend (part 2)

Here comes the rest of the story of the Patrik & Rin "drama".

Desucon came, and we went all togheter; me Patrik, Rin and Stian. The first day of the con was ok. We had some fun on the con, and ate some delicious food. But I think the part where we were joking and having fun on the hotel was way more fun! We just sat there, joking about random stuff, and chilled on the beds. Good times, good times, I'd say.

The second day wasn't that much fun though. I was tired, and Patrik was kinda slow. I was all stressed out 'cause I wanted to look good AND reach the con before it opened again. So Patrik and I had a small fight, and I was pretty mad at him the rest of that day. I was so tired of all the negativety and all that stuff that had been going on lately. So, yeah.

Later that day Stian got sick, and decided to take the train home. Someone had to go with him to the trainstation so he wouldn't be left alone. And I wanted to stay on the convention, so Patrik decided he would go with him. And Rin stayed with me on the convention. No! Take it easy, we didn't do anything x)

When Patrik and Stian left, I finally had a chance to talk with Rin alone. Finally I could tell how my situation was etc. I was a bit discrete about what was going on with my feelings etc. Told him I was beginning to be a little unsure about my feelings for Patrik. He gave some small advice etc, and I felt some kind of reliefe since I could finally open up to someone about my situation and get some constructive advice from. Later we walked around for a bit, and he decided to buy some food for me, since I dind't have any money (Patrik was keeping the money). Then Patrik came back, and my happiness slowly faded away again. The rest of the convention was kinda boring, and we left a little earlier than expected. We just ate some pizza and took the buss home.

A few days later I was visiting Rin. Patrik was very sceptical to this, and I think he really wanted to join me as well, just to make sure I didn't do anything. I understand him, but then again, he should have trusted me that much... And he was the one who said I might need some time alone with Rin, since we were good friends.So I went to visit him, and we had alot of fun playing on his xbox and with his rats^^ And then I was going to take the last buss home, but we were too late. So I called Patrik and told him I was too late for the buss and asked him if it was ok if I stayed at Rins place for the night. I was too tired to walk home after a long day walking around in the city. But Patrik didn't give up that easily. He was ready to walk all the way up there and get me home. But after 15 mins of discussing, he finally gave up and I slept at Rins place that night.

The next day I had a feeling I didn't want to go home. I would rather stay with Rin and have more fun with him. If I went home I would most likely get a mad face from Patrik and we would just sit there in front of our computers again. And that was pretty boring if you ask me! So I asked Patrik if I could join Rin home again. He was still sceptical, but he allowed it.

Days past, and I still didn't want to go home. I also decided to ask Patrik for a break. I was still confused about my feelings. So it would be just natural to take a break and see if the feelings really are gone. Unfortunate for Patrik, my feelings was long gone. I've begun to fall deeply in love with Rin.

After about a week I finally decided that I couldn't go on any longer like this. I decided to go to his house, tell him it's over, then pack my stuff and leave. Pretty harsh, I know. But what could I do?
So I got a friend of Rin to help me drive all my stuff to Rins place and drove to Patriks place. When we came, Patrik was waiting. I was mostly straight forward in what I was going to do, and he told Rin and his friend to go back to the car so he could talk privatly with me. I was telling him that my feelings were long gone and I couldn't live like this anymore. He took my hands and squeezed them hysterical. He looked deeply into my eyes and begged me not to leave him. My conscience told me to not leave him, I felt really bad for him. But like I said; what can I do when I had no feelings for him at all, and I could barely look at him without feeling a bit unwell? I explained to him over and over again, but he refused to listen and accept the fact that I was leaving him. After talking for almost half an hour, I finally just walked back to the car. I was tired of this bullshit (exuse my swearing). We packed my stuff and left the place. I felt really bad, and when we came back to Rins place, I just layed down and took a loooong nap.

The days past more, and Patrik began to become really active on facebook. suddenly he wrote something about anime etc. He never even looked my direction when I was watching anime before! So why should he begin to watch anime all of a sudden after I broke up with him?
He also began to drink (or so he told me, not sure if it was actually true, or just to get my attention). Rin did the same thing when his ex broke up with him. Coincidence? I don't think so. But that's my opinion.
So after I broke up with Patrik, he have been making scenes and drama.

Now we're in present day. I've deleted him from facebook and all other forms for conntact. Only thing I've kept is his phone number. On top of that my good friend Stian deleted me and called me a player/whore. So not only did Patrik make me feel bad etc. I also lost a dear friend. But I guess that's my punishment for trying to live a happy life.

But now I got Rin, and I feel we fit alot better together than Patrik and I did. We laugh every day, take walkes around in the city, and around in the area. We also play games together, like gamers do x)

I just wanted to get all this confusion out here, so people I know can read it, and maybe understand my part of all of this. Stian refused to listen to my part, so maybe someone else will :)

BEDTIME!
Until next time~!

~Kori

Desucon & new boyfriend (part 1)

Long time, no see!
I haven't really been too active here, have I..? :p Weeell... I got a story to tell, I guess. First of all; Desucon was alot of fun :D Had a great time^^ Even though the plans we made didn't really go as planed x) But still, it was alot of fun ^^

Well anyways, lets get to the interesting part of this post? Uhm, like the title says; I have a new boyfriend^^ "What happened to Patrik/Ortega?" you say? Well... All relationships aren't perfect. And I was not really myself when I got together with Patrik, and neither was he. The Patrik I knew slowly dissappeared after I moved down to him and we became a couple. After a while he was far from the person I knew these 2 years. Yes, it was through skype, and people are often a different person through the internet... At least I have learned my lesson, I guess.

After half a year I began to get a little worried. I had no job, and the person I once fell in love with had become a totally different person. On top of that I didn't have any close friends in the area. Only a couple of people I knew, but barely talked to. So I was stuck there, in a room with a boy I thought I loved. Kinda lonely, and barely had money, even though I lived with him at his parents house. My body could barely take all the stress, and I had a few breakdowns throughout the winter. But I kept on smiling.

When the spring came, I finally decided "I can't just sit here anymore!". I looked down on my body which was growing because of all the gaming and the junkfood. I was ashamed of my own body. Time to train!
But Patrik wasn't really interested in going out of his room. But I finally managed to get him out a little more. Then in April I found Rin on this wannabe dating website thingy. It wasn't really a datingsite to begin with, but now it looks like one o__O But anyways. I was browsing random profiles of people in the area. I noticed a guy with a emoish style on his hair and a rat on the shoulder. "Gotta check this guy out! He has a friggin' rat! *w*". So I clicked into his profile and noticed a few common interests. I thought "why not try to write to him? He seems like a nice guy :) A little bit crazy, just like me x)", and so I did. And we wrote a little, and started playing a little Maplestory together. After playing some I decided to let him try to find me on facebook, just for fun :p He didn't add me at first, but then I told him to do so, 'cause I felt we could become good friends^^ After all we had alot in common.

After a month or so, I tried to get him to meet me and Patrik IRL. We had been talking alot since I first wrote to him, and I'll be honest with you, I was kinda excited to meet him in person. He was a new face for me, so yeah :p The first meeting was kinda awkward, and I felt like I talked more with Patrik than Rin, and felt really bad then. But I'm shy, so yeah. Not much I could do, I guess.

Well, time past by, and I got to know Rin better, and I began to get a little feelings for him. I don't know if Patrik noticed my interest in Rin, but he began to act strange. When we were hanging out with Rin, he often became silent, and had his serious/mad face on. This began to annoy both me and Rin after a while. I tried to ask him several times what his problem was. But he was just jalous. But that just made me mad. Wasn't I allowed to have any friends? He clearly knew I was feeling better with male friends, because I got alot of common interest with them, like gaming etc. So why was this one friend such a big deal? If Patrik hadn't reacted like this, I wouldn't have fallen for Rin that easily. But since Patrik began to act so wierd, I began to keep a distance to him. Because Patrik was hysterically jalous if I just spoke with Rin on Facebook. He began to allways keep an eye on me. He used to do so from before, but after I met Rin he became kinda extreme... So, yeah. Began to get a little tired of that in the end...


But it's late, and I should be in bed xD Well I'm technically in the bed already x)
But anyways. I'll see if I can write the rest tomorrow ^^
Until next time ~!

~Kori

Why I'm so busy these days

So some of you people might wonder why I'm not talking to you, or what I'm doing these days. Well, it's mostly because I got alot of things to do. And I hope I get rid of some of this "work" until I get a real job :x
So, here's what I'm doing these days:

Videos for youtube. No, I don't have partnership, but would be fun if I get it :) So I'm making videos 4 days a week. The recording itself takes me 15-30 mins, maybe. And then the editing. It depends on how lazy I am when I'm editing x) It can take from like 20 min to 2 hours to edit my videos. And then the renderingtime... Oh, lord. Y u be so slow Sony Vegas?? Well, depending on how long the video is, the renderingtime can take 40 min to 2 hours. And while it's rendering it's almost impossible to play any games. Only small games like Maplestory, etc. So no Skyrim, Battlefield or Minecraft while rendering :/
So videomaking takes alot of my time as you can see.

Project Assassin. Like some of you might know already, I'm working on my assassin costume. And since I don't have a sewingmachine I'm stuck to work slowly. I can spend 2-5 hours a day just to make 1 simple decoration... But I think this costume is worth it, since it already looks good :) My progress so far? Well, I'm still working on the capethingys on the front. When those is done, the costume is pretty much done, too.
So what's the next thing I'm busy with?

Looking for a real job. And that is not an easy task, I tell ya. I've been stuck without a real job this last year. I had a practice in a pet store in fall. That was a little fun, but I barely got paid. I got around 2 hours of payment for each day, which I worked 6 hours (hope you understand what I ment there, I know my english is bad). But my practice ended just before christmas, and I've been without a job since then :/ But I'm doing my best, and keep the faith. One day I will succeed! I'm also wondering about trying to fullfill my education. I could become a hairdresser. So I was planning on going to the city this week and try to get apprenticeship as a hairdresser. Wish me luck!

Drawingrequests! Yes, now I've begun to get alot of them. And they take time to finish. 1 drawing can take like 3-6 hours to draw. And on my list now I got 9 requests. And it seems like the requests will keep coming... So I've decided I'll try to make some money out of this hobby of mine. Just hope people don't get mad, and understands my situation. :/ I got no money, and this is taking alot of my time... And time is money, as they say.

Trying to get friends in the area I now live in. It was pretty easy for me to get alot of friends in Bergen. Might be because the people I already knew had alot of friends, and just introduced me to everyone. Now here in Sarpsborg it is totally different. My boyfriend isn't the kind of guy going out much, so he doesn't have that many friends. So I'm kinda on my own when it comes to my "friendfinding quest". But I've actually got 1 friend now :D Only thing is that I haven't met him IRL yet xD But that's not really a problem, we can meet whenever we want to. We just need to agree to a day we can meet in the city or something^^

Training. Takes some time, but I won't be complaining about it^^ 'Cause it feels good to see the fat I've gathered this last year just dissappear for every day. All I need to do is walk around 8000 steps a day^^ My goal is to become so slim that I can fit in one of my pants again xD And I think I'll make it before June :) I really hope so x) This training of mine can take up to 3 hours a day, if I walk slow. x)

Here comes the last thing I'm working on these days, which isn't really important.
Trying to finish games I've started on. Like The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time 3D. I've never actually finished that game.... SHAME ON ME,  I KNOW. But now as I have it on a portable device, I'll finish it for sure. Stuck in some icecave atm (after becoming adult Link) x)
Other games I want to finish is: Skyrim, Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep (complete 100%), Cry of Fear, Deus EX: Human Revolution, Just Cause 2, Silent Hill 2, Final Fantasy X, Dark Chronicle, and alot more. These are just the most important ones. And I want to keep my rank up on Battlefield 3 too, so I won't be too far behind on my friends. But this is just games, and I shouldn't be too serious about it.

Well, I think this is about it^^ Sorry if this sounds like complaining or just stupid excuses, I'm just explaining to you why I'm quite busy these days. Hope you understand :)

Until next time <3

~Kori

Battlefield 3

I feel this itch to write about something these days. :S

So here comes

I finished the storyline yesterday (I had like just 2 maps left or something, but I've just been too lazy to finish it to now). The story was nice, but I think I actually liked the Bad Company 2 story better. But that might be because of the humor and the different gameplays in the story. In Battlefield 3 there was alot of the same. Just pushing buttons on the right timing. So that just became a little boring. But then again the graphics etc are just amazing :D

I didn't like the game to begin with, I had a hard time ranking up to rank 30. Might be because I was so fixated on my K/D all the time :p But anyways, after rank 30 things became a little more fun, and I've become more used to the game.

Then the patch came...

And all I gotta say is: F*ck suppression! Geez, I don't like it! But that made me become quicker so I'm always the one shooting first :p But I still don't like the suppression. The supportclass is a little bit more useful now, but maybe they could have added a little bit less suppression..? And what happend to the foregrip? :O It doen't really help you anymore. Just makes it worse...

And here comes the funniest part about that patch; the AAmissiles didn't work! You could shoot them and all, but they didn't do any damage. But fortunately that problem is now fixed thanks to a update they came with not long ago :)

After the patch came, I've been running around on knife only servers. And that is actually alot of fun :D All these screams and herpaderp deaths xD It also helps my K/D alot! :D Me gusta <3 But I'm mostly playing there because it's fun. xD

When it comes to playing on normal servers, I've been more into the map Grand Bazar latly. And I always run around B, 'cause everyone wants that base :p I also play some on Operation Metro and Operation Firestorm. Guess these 3 are my favorite maps :) Which map is YOUR favorite? :)

Now, let's see what I can say about this game :)

- Amazing graphics, even in multiplayer. I love the graphics in this game. Everything looks more real than in many other games. Lately I've been playing games like Skyrim and Deus EX: Human Revolution. But I think this game beats both those games in graphics, in my opinion. Yes, Skyrim have amazing graphics as well, but it doesn't have a multiplayer for 64 players..? ;) So, to have a storyline, co-op missions, AND a huge multiplayer to cover, they really did a good job with the graphics :)

- Great story. The story is pretty interesting. The way they made it. You first go from present time. Then you go from the beginning of it all, and work your way to present and future time (if you understand what I mean with my bad english) x) SPOILER ALERT! So you start of on a train, trying to fight your way to a badguy and get caught. Then you find yourself talking to some investigators. And you go through all the events the character you play as have been through. You also see some from another persons perspective too, which might be a little confusing. But this makes the story more interesting, I think :)

- Fun with Co-op! The co-op is really fun. And I gotta say the stealthing is the ones I really LOVE in this game! Had some great fun with one of my friends, Supbatrate. We tried multiple times to make one of those missions perfect, NOT being noticed etc. And suddenly we do too much friendly fire or start pronehumping the ground like some retards xD Good memories from those missions, and more to come, I think. x)

- The patch kinda ruined the game. There where just too many things that were fixed, that really didn't need to be fixed. A shame, really :/ I know that alot of people stoped playing Battlefield 3 after that patch came. And that's kinda sad... I have some friends complaining about it all the time, and some of them doesn't play much anymore either. So I beg you DICE; Please! Fix this suppression!

Other than this I think Battlefield 3 is a great game, and I really enjoy playing it. :D Much here is like my first BF game (Bad Comapny 2) and I really like that :D

But I guess this is all there is to say about Battlefield 3.

Until next time~!

~Kori

Project Assassin

So, finally a new post, which is actually not transported from my norwegian blog! I think I'll focus more on this blog here, because then I can reach out to more people, etc. But anyways!

Project Assassin is a project I'm working on now. I'm sewing a whole costume by hand ('cause I don't own a sewingmachine). And it's going to be a fanmade, female assassin costume. I've taken inspiration from the Altair armor you recive in the end off Assassin's Creed 2 :)

Here's a bad scetch of it:

I'm going to wear this on a convention this summer (sometime in the end of June). And I'm going with 3-4 other people who's also going to cosplay assassins :D We're making our own hiddenblades and everything^^ (one of us is making one made of Lego) xD

We're also planning on do stuff for entertaining, but I won't tell you what that is until after the convention ;D Gotta have some secrets, ya know <3

Well, I've been working on this project for 4 days now, and the result even shocks me!
Here's a pic of it:

What do you think?

All I gotta say is; I can't wait to it's done! :D <3

But I need to go now, going to the woods to have some fun^^
Until next time~! <3

~Kori

Battlefield: Bad Company 2

Ok... So this is a old post from my norwegian blog. Hope you like it anyways :)

Yeah, I bet you've been waiting for this one. :)

Today I'll write about a game I've played a lot this summer: Battlefield: Bad Company 2 My first "war FPSgame", as I call it. The first game I've played (except a little bit of CoD and CS 1.6), where I shoot at someone who can shoot the same mass back, if not more.

At first I was very skeptical about this game, since the times I've played CoD I died all the time. And I've been a very bad loser in my entire life. Fortunately, I've gotten better by the age. But anywayz... As I told  I was very skeptical about this game, but after nearly a year of nagging from Patrik, I finally bought it in May last year. And I have no regrets! In the beginning I sucked, of course, but who doesn't ..? I'm still not a pro, so am happy every time I end up with more kills than the Deaths at the end of a round ... x) (uhm, yes this is writen last fall, and I've gotten much better since then...)

I didn't play singleplayer first, I just jumped right into multiplayer! So called I was called a noob now and then in the beginning. But I have not actually been called a noobtuber! Something I am actually proud of, since it often happens with people and is very negative.

And then there was some info for those who do not know what Battlefield: Bad Company 2 is or means. Battlefield is a Swedish game series, which is taking place in a war. It's a different story in each game, but I've only played Bad Company 2, and don't know much about the other games. But in Bad Company 2 we have 4 classes/kits. Assault, which can give out ammo, medic, who can give out a medkit and ress people (if you have unlock the defib), Engineer, who can use the RPG, and Recon, which can use snipers. Each class have their own groups of weapons. That Assault are the ones who for example may have M416, while the Medic is the only one who can have the M60, etc. But there are also weapons that all classes can use, but it's mostly shotguns.The story of Bad Company 2 is about a squad that is sent on a mission after mission to finally stop the Russians from using a super-weapon against the United States. In order to get to the russians they need to f.eks. do car chases, sniping during a thunderstorm, blow up tanks and helicopters, and much more. And they have to go through deserts, jungles formulas and snowy areas. Personally I thought the car chase was fun :)

My opinions about the game:
- Fun gameplay. Now I talk mostly about multiplayer. You run for example around there, "minding your own buisness" and then suddenly you will be blown to hell, or a buddy spawns as a surprise to you so that you start shooting in all directions (at least that's how I got it). x) A lot of fun to play with friends :)

- Challenges. It is something I both like and dislike in this game here. The part I hate is when people cheat, that is, for example using "wall hack" and "Aimbot" (programs that basically do things for you, or so you can see through walls). These are the negative aspect of having on the opposing team, and you clearly feel that they cheat. Why must they ruin a game that can be fun for others? What's the point? Fair enough that they might have ranked up to max and possibly should have all the weapons on the platinum-star, but still. It's not fun for those who might be noobs. Would have been better if it had been set up a separate server for those who want to cheat, than let the rest of us to go through arduous struggles that are almost impossible to win. But now it was a little mass complaining. The challenges I like about this game when I play for example on the opposite team of Patrik (or other good friends). Then I try to kill them most of the time :p Which is actually a challenge, since most people have played a few hundred hours more than me, and rank 50 :P

- Good graphics. It looks realistic, but to a certain extent. Looks a bit unnatural when a person dies, and just suddenly dropped. xD But the graphics are good, and that is good, since I am a bit picky when it comes to graphics and image quality. A little hard to see through the dust clouds of snow or sand, but it also makes the game a little more exciting.

- Great unlocking system. Now I have to say I haven't played very much CoD, but that additional weapons and stuff (like the helicopter to help you) will unlock for you when you have that long killstreaks etc. I think that it's cowardly and unfair. This might not have a lot to do about the unlocking in Battlefield, but I mean, in Battlefield one can use the tanks, helicopters, UAVs, etc. as much as you want and when you want (except for those times when someone else has taken them before you). Each class has their own the weapons and equipment that need to Unlock. And to unlock the stuff in the different classes, you have to play as them! And to unlock the weapons all the classes you need to rank up. I unlocked everything around rank 25, I think. And max rank is 50.

- Varied environments. Who wants to play on 20 courses that that all look the same? No, that's just boring. But in Bad Company 2, you have snow, desert, and jungle enviroment. Different sizes of the maps too. The largest map is called "Heavy Metal" and is boring to play.The map is WAY too big for conquest. You MUST use vehicles to get back and forth between the bases fast enough to take them. However, "Arica Harbor" is much better. But perhaps a little bit small for 32 players. But crowded is exciting in my opinion :p But now I fell a little out of the environment ... ^^'

Could write more, but think I should end it here... x) Hope you enjoyed it ;)

~ Kori