I haven't really been too active here, have I..? :p Weeell... I got a story to tell, I guess. First of all; Desucon was alot of fun :D Had a great time^^ Even though the plans we made didn't really go as planed x) But still, it was alot of fun ^^
Well anyways, lets get to the interesting part of this post? Uhm, like the title says; I have a new boyfriend^^ "What happened to Patrik/Ortega?" you say? Well... All relationships aren't perfect. And I was not really myself when I got together with Patrik, and neither was he. The Patrik I knew slowly dissappeared after I moved down to him and we became a couple. After a while he was far from the person I knew these 2 years. Yes, it was through skype, and people are often a different person through the internet... At least I have learned my lesson, I guess.
After half a year I began to get a little worried. I had no job, and the person I once fell in love with had become a totally different person. On top of that I didn't have any close friends in the area. Only a couple of people I knew, but barely talked to. So I was stuck there, in a room with a boy I thought I loved. Kinda lonely, and barely had money, even though I lived with him at his parents house. My body could barely take all the stress, and I had a few breakdowns throughout the winter. But I kept on smiling.
When the spring came, I finally decided "I can't just sit here anymore!". I looked down on my body which was growing because of all the gaming and the junkfood. I was ashamed of my own body. Time to train!
But Patrik wasn't really interested in going out of his room. But I finally managed to get him out a little more. Then in April I found Rin on this wannabe dating website thingy. It wasn't really a datingsite to begin with, but now it looks like one o__O But anyways. I was browsing random profiles of people in the area. I noticed a guy with a emoish style on his hair and a rat on the shoulder. "Gotta check this guy out! He has a friggin' rat! *w*". So I clicked into his profile and noticed a few common interests. I thought "why not try to write to him? He seems like a nice guy :) A little bit crazy, just like me x)", and so I did. And we wrote a little, and started playing a little Maplestory together. After playing some I decided to let him try to find me on facebook, just for fun :p He didn't add me at first, but then I told him to do so, 'cause I felt we could become good friends^^ After all we had alot in common.
After a month or so, I tried to get him to meet me and Patrik IRL. We had been talking alot since I first wrote to him, and I'll be honest with you, I was kinda excited to meet him in person. He was a new face for me, so yeah :p The first meeting was kinda awkward, and I felt like I talked more with Patrik than Rin, and felt really bad then. But I'm shy, so yeah. Not much I could do, I guess.
Well, time past by, and I got to know Rin better, and I began to get a little feelings for him. I don't know if Patrik noticed my interest in Rin, but he began to act strange. When we were hanging out with Rin, he often became silent, and had his serious/mad face on. This began to annoy both me and Rin after a while. I tried to ask him several times what his problem was. But he was just jalous. But that just made me mad. Wasn't I allowed to have any friends? He clearly knew I was feeling better with male friends, because I got alot of common interest with them, like gaming etc. So why was this one friend such a big deal? If Patrik hadn't reacted like this, I wouldn't have fallen for Rin that easily. But since Patrik began to act so wierd, I began to keep a distance to him. Because Patrik was hysterically jalous if I just spoke with Rin on Facebook. He began to allways keep an eye on me. He used to do so from before, but after I met Rin he became kinda extreme... So, yeah. Began to get a little tired of that in the end...
But it's late, and I should be in bed xD Well I'm technically in the bed already x)
But anyways. I'll see if I can write the rest tomorrow ^^
Until next time ~!
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